Confessions of a Former Fat Girl

I haven’t posted in a few days because my job finally started this week and I’m still adjusting to the added work hours. I’m serving part time at Savannah’s BBQ in Logan, Utah.  I really like my job and all the people I work with which is a big bonus!


I currently smell like baby-back ribs since I’m still wearing my work shirt!


I took Everett to his 15 month (we are a month and a half late!) check up a few days ago. He weighed in at 22.5 lbs. (15%) and got a clean bill of health. He only had to get 2 shots and I was shocked when he didn’t even cry! It probably had something to do with that sucker in his mouth.

So I have a confession to make. I sort of had a “former fat girl” relapse for the past 2 days. It all started with Everett’s doctor appointment. It was early in the morning right during my usual workout time. For some reason this REALLY threw me off. Rather than working out after the appointment, I just skipped it. Then for the rest of the day I was feeling guilty about my lack of exercise which caused me to make BAD eating choices. When I went to bed that night I vowed to do better the next day. Well that didn’t happen. I skipped another workout and had Lucky Charms for lunch and 2 bowls of ice cream for dinner. NOT GOOD.

I was really feeling bad and I couldn’t figure out why I was falling back into my old habits. I did just start a new job but I wasn’t feeling overly stressed about it. I realized that I am still getting used to my new healthy lifestyle even though it has been 6+ months. It is very easy for me to go back to my old sedentary ways and I need to be careful. I was starting to get comfortable and felt like I had everything figured out. I also think the diet that goes along with Jamie Eason’s program is too rigid for me. It was causing me to become obsessive about my food intake and I don’t want to be that way.

Luckily I got back on track today. I started the day with a 5 mile SLOW run. It was just what I needed to remind me why I swapped out my unhealthy habits. I LOVE having the ability to simply lace up my shoes and go for a 5 mile run. It is honestly something I never thought I could do. Now that I can, it is something I plan to do for the rest of my life. I never want to go back to being overweight again. I enjoy my endorphins and extra energy (not to mention my ‘skinny jeans’) too much to go back.

Today, rather than worrying about macro nutrients and time intervals between my meals, I focused on eating healthy WHOLE foods.


I wasn’t too strict and had half a barbeque hamburger and a few sweet potato fries after my shift today. Smile I have a feeling exercising and eating right will be a lifelong battle for me. It is a battle I am willing to fight because my health and the health of my family is important. I’m not going to get down on myself for my slip up but I am going to be better in the future. Today is a new day.

If this is something you struggle with I encourage you to start your new (healthy) life now. Don’t wait till tomorrow or Monday or the New Year. Start now. Right now.


I decided to throw this picture in at the end because I think it’s cute. Dax was SO excited when he saw this car that looks just like “Doc Hudson” from the movie Cars!

6 thoughts on “Confessions of a Former Fat Girl

  1. Love your blog! I love your honesty about living a healthy lifestyle…it’s definitely a constant battle. I sometimes just wish I would love eating healthy ALL the time. It’s good to know I am not the only one that struggles:)

  2. I always find it so crazy that on the days I don’t workout, I eat the worst. You’d think that on the days I workout, I would eat bad because I could mentally justify it……”hey, I can eat this pizza because I ran 8 miles.” But no, when I run 8 miles, I want to fuel my body with the best, so I eat right. And on the days when I don’t workout, I’m like “oh look, a 1200 calorie piece of red velvet cake! I’ll have TWO!!”
    Health is an everyday choice. Somedays are good, somedays are bad, but it’s all a wonderful journey!!

  3. Wow. It’s like you took all of my feelings and thoughts lately and put them into words I haven’t been able to! Since May I have dropped 41 pounds, but I still have days where I let my inner fat girl back out. It’s only fair, I never let her eat anymore 😉
    For the past couple of weeks I have been working out around 9 or 10 and life has been good, but this week I have had things that need to be done and that time just isn’t available. So what have I done? Fit in exercise later? Nope, just promised myself to fit it in the next day…but it hasn’t happened. And now my food choices are suffering as well. It’s SUCH a viscious cycle!!!!

  4. I just happened to stumble upon your blog – and I love it! I can definitely relate to poor eating choices. It seems like one bad choice leads to another. Self sabotage! (My weakness is peanut butter!!) Good luck with blogging, family and staying fit! 🙂

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