Confessions of a Former Fat Girl

I haven’t posted in a few days because my job finally started this week and I’m still adjusting to the added work hours. I’m serving part time at Savannah’s BBQ in Logan, Utah.  I really like my job and all the people I work with which is a big bonus!


I currently smell like baby-back ribs since I’m still wearing my work shirt!


I took Everett to his 15 month (we are a month and a half late!) check up a few days ago. He weighed in at 22.5 lbs. (15%) and got a clean bill of health. He only had to get 2 shots and I was shocked when he didn’t even cry! It probably had something to do with that sucker in his mouth.

So I have a confession to make. I sort of had a “former fat girl” relapse for the past 2 days. It all started with Everett’s doctor appointment. It was early in the morning right during my usual workout time. For some reason this REALLY threw me off. Rather than working out after the appointment, I just skipped it. Then for the rest of the day I was feeling guilty about my lack of exercise which caused me to make BAD eating choices. When I went to bed that night I vowed to do better the next day. Well that didn’t happen. I skipped another workout and had Lucky Charms for lunch and 2 bowls of ice cream for dinner. NOT GOOD.

I was really feeling bad and I couldn’t figure out why I was falling back into my old habits. I did just start a new job but I wasn’t feeling overly stressed about it. I realized that I am still getting used to my new healthy lifestyle even though it has been 6+ months. It is very easy for me to go back to my old sedentary ways and I need to be careful. I was starting to get comfortable and felt like I had everything figured out. I also think the diet that goes along with Jamie Eason’s program is too rigid for me. It was causing me to become obsessive about my food intake and I don’t want to be that way.

Luckily I got back on track today. I started the day with a 5 mile SLOW run. It was just what I needed to remind me why I swapped out my unhealthy habits. I LOVE having the ability to simply lace up my shoes and go for a 5 mile run. It is honestly something I never thought I could do. Now that I can, it is something I plan to do for the rest of my life. I never want to go back to being overweight again. I enjoy my endorphins and extra energy (not to mention my ‘skinny jeans’) too much to go back.

Today, rather than worrying about macro nutrients and time intervals between my meals, I focused on eating healthy WHOLE foods.


I wasn’t too strict and had half a barbeque hamburger and a few sweet potato fries after my shift today. Smile I have a feeling exercising and eating right will be a lifelong battle for me. It is a battle I am willing to fight because my health and the health of my family is important. I’m not going to get down on myself for my slip up but I am going to be better in the future. Today is a new day.

If this is something you struggle with I encourage you to start your new (healthy) life now. Don’t wait till tomorrow or Monday or the New Year. Start now. Right now.


I decided to throw this picture in at the end because I think it’s cute. Dax was SO excited when he saw this car that looks just like “Doc Hudson” from the movie Cars!

Finding Motivation to Workout

I haven’t exercised since I got back from Ragnar. I have been giving my body time to recover from running and from the flu bug I got. As of yesterday I feel back to 90% so I MUST stop making excuses and get back to my workout routine. I don’t know about the rest of you but I often have days when I just don’t want to lace up my shoes and go workout. In honor of my lack luster desire to go to the gym this morning, I’ve decided to compile a list of things that help me get my workout in when I really don’t want to.

1. If you workout in the morning, get up and immediately put on your gym clothes. I find that if I have my clothes on I am much less likely to skip a sweat session since I’m already dressed for it.


2. Download some new music or a podcast to your MP3 player. I get really excited to listen to my favorite podcasts, but I only allow myself to listen to them while I’m working out. This motivates me to get to the gym or out for a run so I can listen!


3. Make a goal. The goal needs to be very specific. I was much better about getting all my workouts in while I was training for my half marathon. My goal was to run (without walking) a half marathon on October 13, 2012. I was REALLY excited about my goal and don’t think I skipped a single workout during my training. If you have never done a race before, I highly suggest finding a local 5k and signing up. Races are tons of fun and a great way to get outside with others who care about their health and fitness.


4. Workout with a friend. Working out with friends is not only fun but it holds you accountable to be there when you said you would.  You are much more likely to stick to a workout program if you have a partner to join you.


5. Join in on a group class at the gym. This is usually my go-to tip when I don’t feel like exercising. Group classes are SO fun. Zumba, kickboxing, Bodypump, yoga, barre, spinning, etc. There are TONS of classes to chose from and they are great motivation to work a little harder since I generally don’t want to look like a chump in front of a bunch of people!


6. Find an image that motivates you to stick to your goals and put it somewhere you will see it. I had an image of a woman crossing the finish line of a race on my bathroom mirror. I couldn’t dream of skipping a workout when I looked at that image. I REALLY wanted to be like the girl in the picture and the only way to get there was to tie up my shoe laces and go run.


7. When all else fails and you STILL don’t feel like working out skip it do it anyway! Sometimes it is a matter of sheer willpower. In the words of Nike, “Just Do It!” Don’t think about it, just get out the door and do it. I would bet that once you get 15-20 minutes into your workout, you’ll be feeling good and working hard. The hardest part about exercise is starting. It’s all downhill from there. I have had many days when I didn’t want to run or go to the gym but I have NEVER once regretted a workout.

So what are you waiting for? Lace up those shoes and start sweating!

5 Things

I feel like I’m constantly reading on health/fitness blogs that we shouldn’t worry about what our bodies look like. We need to focus on disease prevention, having more energy, and overall health. While I agree those things are important, I know for a fact the number one motivation for most people to eat healthy and exercise is because they want to LOOK GOOD. Me included. I recently wrote a post about thanking our bodies for all the miraculous things it does for us. In that post I talked about how self worth does not come from our appearance. This is SO true but, it does not mean that it is wrong to want to put your best foot forward by looking YOUR BEST. I am motivated to eat healthy and workout by a variety of things but when I’m having a hard time getting to the gym in the morning the thing that forces me out the door is knowing my sweat session will keep me wearing my skinny jeans! No shame.


Lately I have been wanting to get a dog so bad. The Big One LOVES dogs and talks about them all the time. Whenever I picture active families I always imagine them having a dog. These families take their dogs on hikes, runs, to the park, and swimming. Whenever we take our kids hiking I feel like we need a dog to join in the fun with us! Also, dogs are great for teaching kids responsibility.  Dax is only 3 but I still think it would be good for him to help feed the dog and clean up after it. Plus, I’m afraid of the dark and it would be nice to have a dog to protect me during those early morning runs in the dark! Not to mention, how cute is this little guy!?!?


I have cleaned my kitchen floor 850000000000 times this week and I’m sick of it.  I think I’m going to boycott sweeping and mopping for a week and see just how dirty the floor can get!


I am really excited because tonight I am going to see a movie with a great friend of mine.  I haven’t seen a chick flick in a long time and I am seriously in need of some girl time! I’ve heard good things about this movie…hopefully they are true.

3 DAYS UNTIL MY HALF MARATHON!!!!!!!!!!! My stomach is in knots as I write this. The anticipation is killing me.

What are some random things on your mind today?


Grandma has to go home tonight so we are going to make the most of her last day here. I am so glad she was able to come visit.  We have had a blast together!

This morning I grabbed a quick breakfast of plain Greek yogurt with smashed blueberries, chia seeds, and homemade peanut butter granola.  I also grabbed a Healthy Pumpkin Muffin.


This morning I have been thinking a lot about how our attitude can really influence how our day is going to go.  We can choose to let the little things get to us and ruin our day or we can choose to take the high road and let go of the things we cannot control. It is easy to focus on the lady who was so rude at the grocery store or the fact that you woke up with a huge pimple on your face.  These things are out of our control so we should just forget about them and enjoy our day anyway.

We shouldn’t use a bad day as an excuse to go to Cold Stone and have 3 cups of ice cream or to skip a workout. We’re all going to have bad days, it is a part of life but, if we can change our attitude and do our best to be positive, our bad days might not be SO bad.  Also, if we keep up our healthy eating and workout habits, we will have more energy and feel better about ourselves, which may just help us pop out of our funk!

What helps you when your having a bad day?

What did you have for breakfast this morning?